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It wasn't a big deal. Honestly, it really wasn't. Compared to everything else going on in the world, it didn't even qualify as a drop in the bucket. Only a very small group of people (relative to the billions of people on this earth) even knew it existed.
But it mattered to her. It was a big deal to her.
Which was exactly why this was so hard to swallow. She had worked for this...hard - blood, sweat, and tears hard. Dreamed about it...and dreamed big. Gotten excited for it...more excited than anything else in a long time. Planned and schemed and pictured it in her mind a million times...and she fantasized well.
And now...this letdown. This huge, painful, incredibly disappointing letdown.
But honestly, it wasn't a big deal at all. At least, that's what she tried to tell herself. Attempting to distance herself and think realistically about it, she told herself countless people had life much, much worse.....this was such a small thing. But somehow that didn't help.
She next tried to comfort herself with a reason. Obviously God didn't want them to do this...maybe they shouldn't be on the road at that time...maybe they were needed home for a special reason...maybe...maybe...maybe....
Maybe there was no reason at all - at least none she needed to know about. Maybe God was just way, way big and had a plan too expansive and wonderful for her to begin to understand.
Maybe she just needed faith.
Faith to accept that this was the Plan, to be content with her situation, and to rejoice in the trial.
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